In the past few days, Lewis Capaldi returned to the Glastonbury stage and dropped new music—and one line from his latest track has been echoing in my head ever since:

"Most nights, I fear that I'm not enough."

It stopped me in my tracks.

Because if I'm being honest, I feel that most nights too. Not because I don’t have people who love me—because I do—but because of that relentless, cruel little voice in my head. The one that whispers: You're useless. You’re failing. You're not good enough at anything. You’re a disappointment.

That voice, for me, comes with the territory of living with OCD. It hits hardest just before bed, when I’m most tired and vulnerable. That’s when the intrusive thoughts start spiralling—replaying every mistake, reminding me of every shortcoming, twisting things until I start to believe I’m worthless.

And when I’m that tired, it becomes hard to tell which thoughts are mine and which ones are just OCD doing its thing.

In therapy tonight—my last session before a short break—I said I was really looking forward to the new Superman and Fantastic Four films.

And you see…

The Thing is:

…sorry, I couldn’t resist. 😅

But seriously—Ben Grimm, the Thing, has always meant a lot to me. As a kid, I used to dream of being a superhero—not just for the powers, but because I thought maybe then people would like me. Maybe they’d think I was cool. Maybe they’d stop seeing me as weird.

In the early 2000s Fantastic Four reboot, Michael Chiklis played the Thing as this powerful, loyal, tough guy—but no matter how good he was, people still looked at him like he was some kind of monster. Different. Wrong. And I really connected with that.

Even now, seeing the new version of him on screen brings all that back. Because sometimes, despite everything, I still feel like that version of myself—strong in ways people can’t see, but still misunderstood. Still "too much" or "not enough" at the same time.

As a kid, I believed anything was possible. But over time, that belief got worn down—by the world, by experience, and by the exhausting loop of mental illness.

That’s why hearing Lewis Capaldi—someone massively successful—sing about not feeling like he’s enough reminded me that I’m not alone in this. That maybe we all carry that fear sometimes, even if we don’t show it.

So if you've ever felt like you're not enough, just know this: I get it. You're not your worst thoughts. You're not your diagnosis. You're not the Thing.

But you are someone.

And that's more than enough.